Archive for January, 2009

One Year

I’m sorry I haven’t been around much. I am still not sure what I want this to be. I’m working again, which, among other things, severely curtails the time I have to write. I wish I would though. It helped.

Today I needed to acknowledge that it was one year ago today that we lost our baby girl. That day was probably the worst day of my life (so many to choose from). This is the last of the one-year anniversaries. I’ve been waiting for this day with a strange mix of anticipation and dread. I suppose I’m glad to have these anniversaries behind us. But somehow I keep hoping there will be some magical moment, some turning-point, where I can tell things are getting better. Easier. But I guess it doesn’t work that way.

I just wanted to say we miss you little Lina. My jelly bean.



About Me

I'm a grieving mom. I have one beautiful daughter, Annika, who's 3 years old now (born 12/28/04). I also had twins, Lina and Cole, on 10/04/07, born at just 26 weeks. We lost Cole after just 23 days due to complications related to his prematurity. Fiesty little Lina overcame so much and just when she was getting ready to come home with us, suddenly had a complication unrelated to her prematurity and passed away on January 11, 2008. This blog is about getting through it. More...